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Writer's Block: Favorite Music Video of All Time [09 Sep 2010|09:38pm]
What's your favorite music video of all time?
"No Rain" by Blind Melon
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food addictions? [24 Jul 2010|06:46am]
so my newest sociological poll is: how do you feel about the concept that most(not all) people are addicted to proccessed foods such as, dairy products, refined sugars, and wheat prodcuts? for instance most people when asked to give up these foods have a very difficult time.


i was reading specifically about wheat today. i wanted to know what it's function in our diet really was since i had recently discovered that dairy isn't as good for you as they say.

i discovered that wheat is an undigestible grass. in the body instead of digesting it ferments and releases toxins such as gluten which is responsible for minor swelling of the tissues and joints, acid refux, and rashes.

all of a sudden it dawned on me... not only do we make alcohol out of hopps (which is in the deadly nightshade family) we make alcohol with wheat, barley, and yeast! when you ferment these things they create the intoxicating effect you feel. so wouldn't eating it in effect do the same thing? this idea kind of freaked me out.

so i guess i'll leave you guys with this... ever feel lazy and tired or bloated after eating a lot of wheat products? ever have a food coma? ... ever wonder why?
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[14 Aug 2007|01:12pm]
this summer has been nothing but work. it blows. in fact i should be getting ready to go to work right now but stupid LJ distracted me. this is my 7th day without a day off. now i know that doesn't sound so bad to some people but with my job i'm not supposed to have to work more than 5 without out a day off. the only reason i worked yesterday was because there was no one to cover or another girl so the re wrote the fucking schedule so that i was actually scheduled so i couldn't tell them to fuck off.

i'll be glad with school starts up again just because it will be something else for me to do with my time. i'm actually taking web design like every one has been telling me to do for years. go me. i'm also taking some other boring stuff but as i'm sure everyone else will be doing i'll have a big ass update for that.

time away from kevin is killing us. i expected it to hurt, i expected to miss him but i didn't expect it to be like this. i don't want to have to wait until november when he moves out here i want him here now. long distance sucks balls.

much love
mel.
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gone away [18 Jul 2007|10:40am]
[ mood | lonely ]

fuck i thought it hurt when Kevin broke my heart nearly 2 years ago but now that we've admitted how much we love each other it's killing me that he had to leave. i thought i was ok this morning because i didn't break down into tears when i woke up and he wasn't there but the second i ran into one of my room mates and he said "you don't sound happy, what's wrong?" and i looked at him like are you fucking kidding me and he thought it had something to do with the other room mate *shrugs* i just walked away saying i was just sad. see my room mates are so wrapped up in there own drama there really isn't anything they can do to be there for me yet i'm constantly there for them. anyway i miss him like all hell and i don't know if i can stop crying just yet. shit i broke down into tears hours before he was leaving and then again as he was boarding the bus. but we keep telling ourselves that it's only 3 months. but like he says "three months with out you is three months of hell"

much love
mel.

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when juggalos get together [16 Jul 2007|12:18am]
[ mood | loved ]

wow it's nice to have internet again. i broke my power cord a few months ago so obviouly i had no computer. but i got a free cord via my friend michal so yay for being back ^_^

work is still stupid they were trying to fire me but can't because it's a long ass process since i'm part of the union but it's getting better i'm not getting yelled at every two seconds for shit everyone is doing.

i finally bagged the guy i've been after for nearly 3 years now. he came out to visit and has been living in my bed for the last 13 days lol. it's been weird and amazing. he finally told me he loves me which is nice since i've pretty much been in love with the fucker for the last 2 years. we decided to go ahead and stay together even if it is long distance for a little while but he's hoping to relocate here in october. so yeah, life is really good right now. however he's going home in a couple days and it's going to to suck hardcore.

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New Banner [20 Nov 2004|02:57pm]
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[26 Jul 2004|02:39am]
[ mood | creative ]

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Friends Only [01 May 2004|05:31pm]
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things [12 Dec 2003|05:45am]
[ mood | crappy ]

well not much going on...

school today - math final

working on homework saturday

choir thing on sunday. (we're still not really prepared)

monday and tuesday school and tests

wednesday finals and sitting at home

thursday finals then sitting at home i'll probably continue working on my story...

then friday lots of sleep and sitting around...

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[10 Dec 2003|06:53am]
because this journal will soon be friends only please post a comment if you want to be added to or want to remain on my friends list.
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[09 Dec 2003|06:27am]
this journal will soon be going friends only... SORRY HOLLI :(
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[05 Dec 2003|08:29am]
i want crayons!
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[05 Dec 2003|08:26am]




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[05 Dec 2003|08:06am]
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[05 Dec 2003|06:17am]




you are darkslateblue
#483D8B

Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're ok in social situations and don't really care about fiting in.

Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.

Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.
the spacefem.com html color quiz
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[03 Dec 2003|06:51am]
1. The happiest?
I’d have to say Audrey (from BWOC) she seems pretty happy despite her angry side

2. The most depressed and unhappy with life?
meara (original then pirates back to original) she hates her life and jumps at the chance to follow letters from some one she has never met

3. Easily gets angry?
audrey. She seems all nice but she has a really quick temper. And Celeste won’t hesitate to pull a knife on you if you piss her off

4. Would rather be alone most of the time?
cassandra is a loner. She is suspicious when anyone wants to befriend her.

5. Annoying as hell?
Rhett (ray-et). Rhe worries far too much

6. Just a complete @$$hole?
lilith is a bitch

7. would jump in front of a bullet to save a friend?
Audrey she loves the friends she found and would do anything to save them
brian and Addia

8. Shy and not very talkative?
celeste she is by far the most talkative.

9. Full of themselves?
lilith

10. Always ready for a fight?
audrey celest cassandra

11. Would find the best way to avoid a fight?
sandra (not Cassandra) rhe

12. Needs company 24/7?
rhe

13. Loves the sound of their own voice?
addia

14. Tries to be the leader of the pack?
meara, cassandra
15. Wanting revenge?
none of them really want revenge

Part 2

1. Who is your main character?
I’m not really working on them but I would have to say Meara, Audrey, and Celeste

2. Who are his/her best friend/s?
Meara: Rhett, Addia, and Brian

Aundrey: Becca Merton Tommy Lori

Celeste: the closest thing she ever had to a friend was Nicolo

3. Does he/she have a GF/BF/married?
Meara: brian eventually (I moved away from it being a pirates fan fic)
Audrey: Merton
Celeste: she fell for Nathaniel


4. Does he/she have a rival?
Meara: yes but I got writers block on who
Audrey: I can’t remember the xisang’s name
Celeste: Lilith

5. Does your main char represent the r/l you?
Not really. A lot of them have certain aspects of my personality and some of them are what I wish I could be but the only one that really represents me is Audrey

6. What character are you really proud you created?
I’m very proud of Audrey and Celeste.

7. Do you think about your chars a lot?
all the time they are always yakking away in my head

8. Do you ever wish you could meet your chars in r/l?
hell yeah

9. Do you remember the moment you created your first char?
well I had been thinking them up for years but the first one I put down on paper was Audrey. I had a basic idea of her but as the annual Disney marathon sally and I stayed up until 3 or 4 in the morning talking about our characters that’s when Audrey really came to life and that’s when sally and I realized we really think alike because our characters were so similar they ended up being related.

10. Is originality important to you when creating a character?
I don’t mind getting ideas from other peoples characters before you create yours, but originality is good!

11. Do you ever look at somebody's character and wish it was yours?
no. sometimes I envy my friends way with words but I’ve never wished one of their characters was mine.

12. Can you see yourself keeping this up in the future?
yes. I’ll be writing forever.
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"i don't understand how you can be such a slob." [01 Dec 2003|08:09pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

according to my mom i'm a slob.

yep we love each other so much -_- can't you tell

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[21 Nov 2003|06:15am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

last night was the first stressless night i've had i a long while. i go a letter from my dad i was happy because i was starting to think that he wouldn't write back. so i need to write him another letter. he says he would love to read any of my writing. now comes the hard part i don't know what to send him. i found out that my oldest sister cindy thinks my poetry is scary...

is my poetry scary... i really want to know...

so yeah. i've go to gather what i want to send to him.

only 18 hours until GOTHIKA!

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a day off [20 Nov 2003|06:15am]
[ mood | crappy ]

so yesterday i didn't go to school. that probably wasn't smart and i forgot to call anyone and ask what happened. oh well. basically i wasn't coping real well with the fact the my policy essay (which is crap by the way) my 3 body pragraphs for tess and 3 explications are due today. so i managed to get the 2 essays done yesterday. i ended up writing my ENTIRE tessay hence the reason my explications aren't done. i did one of them last night but the started to get tired so i just said fuck it i'll do the other two in the morning. i feel a little less stressed out right now. which is good because tuesday night there was this whole episode where i had a crying nervous breakdown. that's never happened to me before. i've never been so stressed that it made me cry... but hey there's a first time for everything right...

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[18 Nov 2003|06:06am]
[ mood | crappy ]

I’m still not really ok. I want to peel away my skin as a distraction from everything else or to fly away from my body so I can feel free. I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I kind of have the same problem of not being able to tell people how I really feel not so much because I might come off as a bitch but because I might sound stupid or I might make the problem worse. But basically I feel really excluded from everything (and from a lot of people too.) I don’t know if it’s just me or what. Lately it might seem like I’m isolating myself but I don’t mean to. I guess it just feels like something in the group has changed and I don’t know what… on the other hand it may just be some weird feeling I’m having and it’ll go away…

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